*Torn between Reality n Dreamworld*

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

*entitled 2**

Ryan....you wrote me msg....

*julz, haha. u'll always be my oil tank. u seem 2 be veh stressed out lately, dunno y. think u've been thinkin' 2 much. as 4 smack tt, i think it was ok luh. maybe u juz pretend 2 act pitiful only. i nvr noe lor. haha. jkin' luh. the fruits game was so random luh, it came abt as a stress releaser & due 2 boredom as well. lol. & juz cuz u're 1 yr older than me doesn't make me immature alrite. u juz haven seen the mature side of me, so dun judge a bk by its cover. but overall, ur frenship is cherished by me =) take care & God bless.*

Now my turn to answer back..

*Yeah! i have been very stress dis few days...no idea why...guess its my lack of slp but i can't seem to slp early...i guess i have a hard time slpping....as for thinking too much..i am not really sure....i sometimes get information overload...it can be stressful...but i will live..used to it for 4 freaking years already....weii...the smack tat is pain lo..that time u really smack me on the shoulder bone. ...i wasn't being pitiful...The fruit game was extremely random...i tend to do that alot lately...doing random stuff at random times....weii...as u know..i said i thought u were an immature gitz..=X thought i still think ur are..but tat just. my preception of you.....yA i know i rock.....*bows down* WAHAHAHA!!! i will cherish your friendship as well....ttlc =) bbuaiz!!!

now that is over!! now i can post reall stuff now!! i am actually typing in school wahahaha!! today is computering...extra boring like no other..i feel like dieing actually..bored as hell!!! dun even understand the problem statement much......okie back from break.....faci is here but i am still posting lalalala!! today going for the pm lee visit..so funni their cheer is extremely stupid and retarded...and i cant believe i am actually in the same school...sighs!!! thought their cheer is retarded..i can't seem to makea better one..i am not a cheer person...i tend to slack and do random stuff!!..okie time to do work...post later again =)

me
|9:57 AM|

Saturday, July 28, 2007

**entitled**

Just want to start of as i watch finish Autumn Tale....Its are Korean Drama...Damn nice and Sad....i actually cried for some parts of the shows..OMG!!!! damn IT...it was so freaking sad...Okie enough with that.....babble!!!

For ryan:
you wrote me a nice message..now i am answering it back!! Ryan...when i first saw you in class on the first day...i thought you will an immature git and i still do but you have grown up abit LOLX!!! and as for the smack that!! that was PAIN when you smack me on my shoulders...you actually wacked my shoulder bone...Bleh!!!! as for the advice i gave you on Friday...your most welcome...=) but you gave me lasting memories..of fighting with the stupid fruit game....i can't believe i actually thought of it....but it was fun...thankz for being an immature friend LOLX...a good friend non the less =)

For my lunch buddies:
You guys were the best....one of my close friends in W46J, thankz for giving me encouragement. Thankz for excepting me of who i am....Just a simple thankz...not much to say..cos you have given me, memories that would last forever.

Omg..i write all this as if i will die anyday...so emo..WHAHA...but i am greatful of the all the memories i had in W46J. =) hope to keep in touch =)

Friday...was one interesting day..i had fun......=)

me
|2:52 PM|

Thursday, July 26, 2007

*3 more weeks.*

I have to say that there are only 3 more weeks till semester is over and the changing of class starts...i would really miss you guys....=) now i would like to share this set of Japanese lyric translated in English. its really sweet =)

Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself

That lonely feeling keeps creeping up on me
A single candle burns inside
There shouldn't be an expensive chandelier in a wild place like this

Can i really bury it all with empty words?
I don't even know anymore...
As long as we can swim freely in our dreams
we wont need that sky anymore
Even if you can't let go of the past,
I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow

Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself

Alright...now for the few qns, i would like to ask in no one in particular...Why is my class W46J falling part now? after about 13 weeks with you guys, it would have seem that we are so united but now, its like a candle that finally doesn't want fire to company it anymore....it just pains me to see my friends like that..Y can't we all get along...i guess i am asking for the impossible rite? will it hurt to just sit down and talk your differences out? will it destroy your pride?

me
|10:27 PM|

Monday, July 23, 2007

*I am useless..will always be useless...*

i am useless, i am useless....have always been useless, i am a good for nothing daugther.....i will neva be good enough for my mother....she thinks i am stupid. she thinks that i cannot think...she compares me with everyone tat is better than mee...yyyy.....i am no good, i understand that....i will neva be good enough.....i will neva be matured enough for u..rite....i will always be the useless and immature in your eyes.....When will you eva say i am proud....you thin ki am stupid...even my aunties and uncle say i am stupid....they dun say by words but they say by the way they tell you and you nagg at mee rite....my whole family hates me....my sister is better rite.....i am not needed in this family ritee.....i am an outcast rite???

did i mention..crying before slpping gives blood shot eyes.

me
|10:37 PM|

Sunday, July 22, 2007

*hmm..juz stating my life*

Saturday 21st July
Hmm....went to help out in the preparation for the 3rd year SAS FYP presentation....damn i had to wake up so damn freaking early like 6 am in the morning, i was half dead. Who wakes up at 6 in the morning on saturdays..welll me for tat day only!!!.....was doing the walking around duty....3rd year FYP..so cool..for SAS tat is.....project names like fattening mudd crabs and making healthier browniess....so cool la!!! wanted to go in listen but the facilitators ask us to go away.damnn itt....anyway...it was like tat till 3 plus in the afternoon.gotta wait till everyone left den we are able to leave. After that i went to dg to the comic collection to check if the comic i want is still there....they onli have book 4..went to the book shop next door to look for book 3....and thankfully they have.....cos CWP's comic collection only had the newly released book 5.....sianzz!!! thankz to ada for introducing this comic too me or was it Adrian...i forgot =X......"Vampire Knights" den i came home to slp sia..sooo tiredd..

Sunday 22nd July
Today, woke up around 9 am but stayed in bed to relax till abt 10.45 den watched tv.....criminal minds and law enforcement unit.....nice sia.......watch how they find the criminals...today my sister is going back to sydney to study her last year.....and i am following....not to mention....gendou finally released Alones by Aqua timez bleach's 6th opening song....hehehe...tats all i am gonna say..bbb=)

me
|5:03 PM|

Monday, July 09, 2007

*okie here's wat happen...=)*

Thursday 5th July
same lessons as usual...nothing much!! after school is the most irritating part of all..bloody hell!! wanted to go to a talk.went down there liek 4.3o sharp...but guess wat the bloody place was full so doors were closed..damnitt.......sighs!! my DA points..oh well!! stayed behind to do my RJ with timothy, suet may and ashiekha....stayed till about 6 plus then walked to mrt to go home...=) tml!! is exciting...can't wait =)!!

Friday 6th July
lessons as usual...nothing much!! after school was exciting....me,ashiehka and timothy left early, to go vivo city to wait for my mum to fetch us to the marina "one degree 15". Cause we both want to go Gym...OMG!! when we got there..the changing room was like hugeee.....i myself never been there..i was shocked!! lockers were so bigg....i think i could fit like 3 computers...okie i was going over board there...maybe its just one huge cpu and the screen. Then we waited for timothy....he was extremely slow la......what giving the excuse that he couldn't figure out the locker...wahahaha.. =x shhhh!!! later he read he kill me =x.....after that we went to the gym..it was so cool.....my mum left me there with timmy and shikki.....we ran on the trackmill for like 30 mins...after that we tried...using the different equipments...tat i don't know how to do..+.+ so much fun..but a good work out...after that shared 2 pizza's with timmy and shikki..actually..onli ate from one pizza..=x Then after had to go home finish up with the RJ....."how we manage conflicts". There were other event that happen...but i am not allowed to enclosed.=)

Saturday 7th July
Saturday..was relaxing..didn't go slimming today..thank the gods...idiot people...alwasy nagging at me!!! its not my fault that i have no time to go rite..i ahve school from 9 to 4.30 than somemore after that might have talks that would last till 5 to 6 plus..then need walk back to mrt to go to clementi..which take another 30 mins or so....idiotic!! but i said i want go gym..its more fun then going to slimming...idiotic so pathetic!!! whateva.. played a few audi games...than at night had popiah.....about 4..so nice ot make =x than after played a few audi game with b3rry jie,iggy kor,adaaa, jo mei, hui jie....and bryan didi...=) than after watched live earth for awhile...of and on; changing channels.

Sunday 8th July
I did nthing much...just watched live earth..on and off....while playing a few audi games...than watching kaze no stigma...so cool.......kazuma is soooo handsomee......hei from darker than black too..Ahh!!! i fell in love with anime guys...drools!! at night!! went for training...2 hrs...than played cd with b3rry jie and adrian kor and reyna...played a few npc games before i need slp because tml i had school..

Monday 9th July
alritey...today for science, we changed group...which is like no differents to me...since we every 4 to 5 weeks must change group!! lessons as usual.....but today i learnt chemistry omg..=x!! after school..i finally get to listen to a talk....about how global warming is affecting marine life and the environment and how to be a marine biologist...it was an interesting talk...i enjoyed it very much....this is one of the best talks i have heard so far.....trying to go for the next 4...one tml and the wed,thurs n fri..i hope i can make it....prays...=) than went to cafe galliee with ashiekha, timmy and jeff...to do rj and slack awhile and snack..=x orderd my salmon cheese sticks and mango tango......damn nicee...came home around 7.30 like tat...so lateee...but it was worth it.=) tats all for now!! =) ciao! sayonara! bb!

me
|10:05 PM|

Monday, July 02, 2007

*FAciii....*

alrite...dis is gonna short; i think.....first off, today there was a new facii in class..taomin, didnt come today because of business, this facii quite cute in a weird kinda way...he like small boy sia...WAHAHA!!! look like your typical nerd!! high bag pack, glasses. But this one is ur modern day nerd!! LOLX...dis one knows how to crack lame jokes. tat aren't really funni....tried to use japanese today....i was luffing...damn u timothy...say i luffing cos he say wrong..=.=!! XD but actually i was luffing at ur reaction sia...extreme excitement.....poor u though kanna voilated by him lalalalala!!! after school today, went to cwp with saretta looking for peigen's bday pressie...got her this cute preaious moment figurine. and name frame of forever friends....nearly costed a bomb....=/ just kidding..didnt really cost tat much....saretta did pay most of it though =X hehe!! than after tat went home......to install my dmc3 game...bloody hell..this tat game made me so irritated than my stupid com decided to lagg pretty bad...den after 2 hrs of trying..i finally got it to work..and i nearly forgot to do my rj again..thank god i did it in time and now i am doing my blogger.. hehe =X geting pretty late...gotta slp sia..or not tml i pengz for computering ut..sianzz...=.=!!!

me
|11:39 PM|